Photography is quite the learning process and I finally dove into headfirst after years of using the trusty auto setting on my Canon Rebel XL. Although I did take some pretty snazzy pictures, I knew they were far from where they should be. The colors could be more vibrant, the composition needed work, and I had no idea how to do this. I was lucky enough to take a class where I learned the basics. Long story short, I can now use the manual setting to a certain degree. Although I try, I get frustrated when I can’t figure out how to make my pictures look the way I want them to. I look at other photographers pictures and wonder how they have the eye for perfect composition. How do they get such amazing color in their photos? Then I remember that I am an amateur. I need to continue learning and practice as much as I can. Although I prefer to learn hands on with someone who knows what they are doing, I need to watch YouTube videos to learn more at this point. It really boils down to me lacking the confidence to feel deep down that I can do it. This has always been a struggle for me. Everything I do is average. In this case, I take average pictures. I hate the idea of trying and failing, even though I feel like I am failing now. It doesn’t make sense, does it? At 49, I should be past this stage. I obviously am not. Now that I am retired, I am going to force myself to put in the effort and improve. I deserve it!